relaxing day - alone time

There is something in that "being alone in your space" that's so different from being "sort of alone" or so... it's not that I want it all the time, just sometimes... very limited. Although, a wise person once said "it's the difference between being alone and lonely; the choice and non-choice".

Like this weekend starting Friday when I went from work to the gym. 2.5 hours later I left to go home, ate some nice dinner-like food and relaxing, some sports on TV while snoozing on the couch before moving into bed and turning off the light without an alarm for Saturday. And when I woke up in my bed without any alarm, the next day - after 8 hours of sleep - I stared at the ceiling for a little while before rolling out of bed, opening the blinds and one of the windows for the air to swoosh in, climbed back into bed, grabbed a book from the night-stand and made both my pillows stick on top of each other, snuggled under the blanket and started to read. Ignorance of time or musts, just me and the book until my belly growled and wanted something in it.

Making the coffee in the machine, while taking a shower, putting on those comfy clothes that no one really sees you in... letting the hair dry on its own, hanging down on the sides of your face, putting lotion on the face and taking deep breaths. Making some sort of brunch (not lunch but way too late for breakfast), grab the coffee and move to the couch... having a movie in the dvr to enjoy. Still no clue about the time, no need to bother about it since there are no musts today - all floats. It's just resting time. Just me. Nothing that has to happen on a specific time or place. After the movie, cleaning up, making the bed, doing some laundry and ending up on the balcony with more coffee and another book (the first one ended before brunch). Hearing the birds sing in the trees... feeling a nice wind, smelling spring (ok, here it's almost summer) and flipping the pages of the book. And all the time just relaxing. Keeping the head away from work thoughts. Avoiding without even thinking about it, the anxiety about the stress that will happen next week with all the deadlines.

Just be in the now. A friend called from home country, chatting for long time about everything between heaven and earth... almost like being there, so close but yet far away. Many reassurenaces that we'll see eachother soon. And after ending the long call, feeling stomach growling. And then, to end the alone resting day, getting picked up for a dinner and some hockey :)

Sometimes the weekends are just amazing. And the head aches are gone...